disappointment

We were SO excited. The doctors thought we'd be able to bring our little Ellcy home on Thurs. Jan 10, 2013. It was going to be perfect, that was her original due date AND her 2 week birthday. What a miracle, to come home not 2 weeks after surgery but 2 weeks from birth!!!! So we filled her prescriptions, filled out all the paper work, got our training for the oxygen, pulse ox (sp?), feeding tube, giving meds, ect. I have to admit that everything had been going a little too perfectly, but I was happily soaking up all the blessings. The morning of the 10th came and ......guess what.....my sweetie lost weight which meant no going home. I was disappointed and it was extra hard to leave the hospital with out her (again). But I was hopeful for today thinking surely she'd weigh more (just 20grams) and come home.   The news this morning? She didn't lose any weight but she didn't gain any either. So now they are upping her calories and she has to gain weight for 2 consecutive days. Pray that Sunday comes with good news. Each day proves to be harder to leave her now that my arms have gotten use to holding her and I've fallen hopelessly in love with her perfect beautiful tiny features.

So here I go....packed for the weekend. I really really REALLY don't want to come home until Ellcy is my back seat passenger :)